Oh well ...

Hello, everybody (might be nobody >__<)

I am sorry that I am not really active nowadays - everything is finishing for Christmas and it is quite busy.
Have almost all the presents for the people from the UK and some of them took a lot of time to do.
Now, I have to do just one more drawing ... Which should not take long ... But I am so lazy so who knows :D

Another thing is that I never was in such a short relationship xD
(the only other explanation is that the person died - hopefully not xD )
Well, soon I shall see ...

Yesterday I´ve got a really scary virus (computer one ;) ) - I thought I will have to go to prison and stuff :D
It should be healed by now but they are very clever these ones ...
Seriously, hackers, go and bother someone with money and not me - YOU WILL NOT GET ANYTHING FROM ME! *you will not even see how I am having a heart-attack*
This kind of hackers must be just bored ... no other explanation needed :D

I am so sorry that I do not have more time now but I will just post some small things :3
Because I am quite happy how it turned out :P

present for one lovely young lady <3

(I do know there are lot of mistakes but whatever :) )

I love this detail! <3

detail of Monet for my mum <3

poor Monet - surely would not be proud but I could not help it :D

And this is all for now!

Have a lovely day and I will hope for the best and that my laptop is healed! 

LLAP

Love hurts

Hello, everyone!
Really thematic tittle! :)

Do you ever have this feeling while being in love? That no matter what you do you will hurt the other part?
Just because this is the way you are?
Although everything seems just fine you can not help it and stop thinking about what all can go wrong?

The other reason for this tittle is one of my favourite songs from Incubus.

I will keep this post brief because I do not have anything important to say.
Just post some cool photos and video for Love Hurts :)

If you have any experience about what I was talking above - feel free to share ;)

See you later, kids!

Those days ...

I am really sorry about my inactivity. I am almost sure I am a bear and should be preparing for the hybernation during the winter - at least my brain is already turned off.
And another thing is that this weather makes me apathetic. So I do not feel like doing anything at all :D
(Sure there are more people out there like this! :D )

Still trying to complete my first cosmology post to make everyone more knowledgeable and I do hope it will be even interesting to read - at least it was interesting for me and I am the one responsible for the articles on my blog so ... Lets hope that somebody else will enjoy it as well.

On the other hand I am occuring a paradox - my brain is mostly off but then! It is thinking too much.
So, currently I am working on a hypothesis what people see when they are dying in a light of relativity :D
If all the time is right now the black tunnel with light at its end may have a logical reason.
Then I am thinking about ISON and all the conspiracy theory I´ve heard about it.
Not sure what is better: alliens ship or red dwarf?
Either way it is getting a little bit scary and hysteric.
So, yesterday I was looking at it all the time and thinking "How is it supposed to look when it should be brighter than the Moon when its full? Does that mean it will be even BIGGER than the Moon?"

Other thing that happens in my life is that no life happens at all.
I do miss my old friends - or maybe life that was connected to their company.
I do feel like I do not know what I want to do with my life - and I feel like I do not want to do anything about it.
Then I know I should do something because when i am bored it is just one step from becoming depressed.

Life is funny! :D

So you know when and where to look ;)

These are the days I am missing T___T

And something that should spark a small flame of faith in me - one of my firsts <3

Would be lovely to read some comment and know that those feeling are not unique nowadays :)

Have a lovely Sunday everyone and enjoy some oldschool music :)

Beautiful deformity

Hello everyone! :)
First of all I would like to apologize - I am not really active, am I?
I would say that I had lots of things to do - but i am not a liar :D
Sometimes, I am in an "off-mood" and can not help myself to get back on track ...
Sometimes, everything is futile. (what a nice view on world around :D )

This post won´t be very long ...
One of my favourite bands realised a new CD which is ... not really ... bad.
After at least two CDs I could not listen to, the GazettE made Beautiful deformity.
I will not like that all songs are great ... But most of them are.
If you have a feeling that you need to buy any new music - buy it. (if you like rock, mostly ...)

Ok, I am gonna post some "taster" so you can decide if you like it or not :)

I am really sorry that I have to upload a cover but they are really careful nowadays - nothing can leak on youtube or stay there for long. Anyway, all credits go to guys from the GazettE and to lovely Mukki who did a cover. <3 (btw - I love this song ... I do not know why though)

I am really sorry - I would post more if i could find something worth posting ...

Funny, they look like they do not care at all ... about anything :D

(like this was not funny enough - I actually LOVE Uruha´s hat :D )

I do hope you enjoyed Halloween (^__^)V

 I most certainly did :D

Does life make us nihilistic?

I know.
It seems like a really serious topic - and it actually is.
But first we should give some definition what Nihilism is all about.
I am sure most of you do know. Lets ask wiki what she thinks about it though! :)

Nihilism 

• Philosophical doctrine suggesting the negation of one or more putatively meaningfulaspects of life.
• Mostly nihilism is presented in the form of existential nihilism - argues that life is without objective meaning, purpose, or value.
• Moral nihilists - morality does not exist, any established moral values are abstractly contrived. 
• In some aspect, knowledge is not possible, or that reality does not actually exist.

The term is sometimes used in association with anomie to explain the general mood of despair at a perceived pointlessness of existence that one may develop upon realising there are no necessary norms, rules, or laws.

Now when we were all introduced lets move to the discussion.

(well, monologue more likely)

Rest in peace & fly away

First of all I want to apologize that I was not very active.
Just too many things were happening at the same time and I am still fighting with them.
But do not worry, I am a strong person - and Nihilist from time to time, so I do not care :D

One of the things I love is flying - no matter if it is me in the airplane or a bird flying over me or just feeling a strong wind on the top of the hill.
I just love the feeling of freedom.
The title is suggesting something with dying, I know - do not take it too dramaticly :D
This post will mostly contain of photos from todays nice walk along the beach with some special flying features. I am not gonna say more - just want you to enjoy it.

And here is the song that is tightly connected to the title - actually, I have just copied it :D
It is a very special song for me and I really love it! <3

to see the photos you need to continue 

Alone does not mean lonely

First, lets have some definitions about the words themselves.

Alone - having no one else present, on one´s own
Lonely - sad because one has no friends or company, without companions, solitary
(from http://oxforddictionaries.com/)

All of us felt both of this emotions - but why sometimes Alone stands for Lonely?
Is it inevitable? Is it us who let this feelings to come on our surface?
Or is it a pressure from society that people need to be in groups?
Can you be alone and happy at the same time? Forever?

運命をあきらめずに時間を壊して

One of my most beloved songs from Luna Sea - Providence.
Of course when I first fell in love with this beauty I could not understand one word!
(well, not even the English ones, at least not properly)
But the music is magical and compelling and mystical <3
(And I love this era of j-rock/visual kei - and Sugizo is such a drama queen :D )

The other thing is that my weak spot is violins - they just sound too good to be truth!
And yesterday I saw some photo from the year 2011 ... When X had been in Berlin on the World tour.
It all came back ... X Japan are a good band, but my reasons why I was there were totally different ...
I wanted to see Sugizo playing the violin! :) (really stupid reason, I know - and I know lots of j-rock fans would like to kill me for being there and not even knowing all of the X Japan songs ... sorry guys :D )

So, here it comes - enjoy the spooky sounds! <3
(be prepared - long horror-like intro :) )

Women philosophers?

I am attending a group of philosophy in Liverpool.
It is lots of fun and you can meet tremendously interesting people. At least I had. :)
Topics vary from "Future of genetics and the moral impact on society" thru "Authority and its concept" to "Are we living in a multiverse?". Everyone can find something of their own concern. I love it all.
Another good point is that most of the people are not a real "philosophers".
They are usually clever in a different, usually scientific, way and discussions can get even more edgy.
Overall it is a brain training.

And for me it is a great pleasure because I love to listen to a proper English. xD
Of course it is a way to meet new people and possibly make some friends. Plus get smarter.

We have a meeting tomorrow and the topic is "Why there are so few of women philosophers?"
This article will show my views on this problem and I would love you to engage in comments if you have some thought and a minute to spare. :)

So, lets do it!

When to love is not an option

First of all, I would like to apologize for not writing anything for such a long period of time.
I was not really busy or anything, I was just lazy as usual.
That is why I have to say sorry and be ashamed of myself xD

Today, it will be mostly just about my problems and bla bla bla but I am sure that some of you will be able to relate their stories as well.
Almost everyone was in love - at least once in their lifetime.
Some of us all in love all the time - usually platonic.
There are always this beautiful platonic loves you are not even trying to work out just because you know they can not be real - for example "loving" an older japanese guy that is married?!
You can always look at them and admire, sometimes blush when you talk to them, but if you have something called conscience and brain you won´t try to kiss them :D (you do not want to make a fool of yourself after all, or do you?! )
But then there are times when it is too hard to prevent yourself from falling for someone.
And sometimes it can be too deep to get easily back on your feet.

Mary Katrantzou

Ok, I am not really good at "fashion history" but I can tell what I like - and this is all :)
So, in fashion-related posts I will just expressing mine own taste and statements. Nothing less - nothing more.

When I saw this prints/shapes/dresses I fell in love instantly! <3
It is like wearing ART! Plus for me it looks kinda asian-like so I love it just more and more!
Shapes are weird and original - it gives it even more unique look.

So, here are some of the breath-taking clothes from surely talented Mary Katrantzou!

This dress is my favourite - combines nice but a little bit haunted print with comfy fabric.

Thumb up! <3

It can be monochrome to give you more chills!

Who would have thought about shape like this? <3

This one strikes me the most with asian feeling.

And these ones you can already buy - but be prepared for a really "nice" price.

Well, you have to pay extra for art and style in one.

Termini of infinity

We are living on a planet that is somewhere called Universe - at least we think so but who can be sure.
And this place is supposed to be really big - some says it is so huge it has no end.
But is not this a really hard concept for our brain to absorb?
On the other hand, can you imagine that there would be some end of our Universe?
What would be on the other sideof this end? If nothing, how does this nothingness look?

Lets talk about this issue and practise our little grey cells, shall we?

Second bottle of H2O2

I think this is the second and the last post from my University - after that things stopped being funny xD

But I was always interested in science and technology, so I am sure there will be more posts on this topic.

It probably just won´t be funny xD

So, here we go - enjoy the last bits :)

"Nowadays, it is not such fun - you can not drink ammonia by the chance now."

Despair and faith

Tomorrow is unclear
so I´ve got stuck in yesterday
still thinking about my faults
feeling the unchanging fate

Rain falls like a big brother
of my own bitter tears
storm that continues in my heart
can not be satisfied

I can not see the Suns rays
through the darkness
that surrounds me
as a silky but heavy smog

Going from nowhere to nowhere
filled with own guild
filled with the heartbreaking pain

Just how long
can I stay like this?
How long before I am going to
fall on the ground of reality?

the sun of happiness can burn me into the ash ...

But I still want to touch
this warm light instead of this
cold hands of distressed being

Maybe that is just a call
of helpless and hopeless soul
maybe that is just a death wish
to vanish into nothingness

Who would care about this
broken heart that can not see
nothing more than just
a true despair?

It is already decided
there is no tomorrow left
for me, or maybe
even for you

wishes fell from the sky
to get dirty while
touching the weak and filthy
mind of the human kind

They´ve gotten twisted
turned into sins and insanity
the pure essence was destroyed
made into nightmare

Fear overcomes the innocent
soul of a naive man
turning him into a killing machine

can not stop
can not change the reverse side of life ...

Still wishing
but without hope
still praying to be saved
just crumble in a corner
hiding from the true

Nothing can be the same
as a day before
it can evolve or die

Nothing between yesterday
and tomorrow

makes no life ...

Open mouth in a voiceless scream

heart closed for ever ...

You do not need to tell me that the structure is rubbish - I really know it, believe me xD

This is one of the old ones as well - I used to be really different. Now, I do not care so much as before. xD

But still, I quite like some parts of this one and I hope you will find something for yourselves as well.

Even after this time

Please, get out of my mind
sweet memories still remain
even after this time ...

You are in my dreams, every day
sweet reunion that always has
to end in bitter tears
even after this time ...

Please, let me forget that
once I belonged to somebody
let me forget that I loved
let me forget you
after this time ...

Loneliness is the only emotion
on my way to nowhere
Let me erase your smile
which hunts me every night
even after this time ...

Please, sweet nothingness
lets eat me alive, now
End my life, full of sorrow
End it after this time

For now and for ever ...

Ehm, just to let you know - this is something I wrote ages ago.
I still like it, it is full of hopeless emotions. But I would like to point out that I am not a weak person.
Just sometimes, when you feel blue, it is better to write it out and let it go.
So, although it might seem pretty depressed I just want to asure you I am not an emotionaly weak person.

It is just that sorrow makes you more creative :D
and then, when you´ve finished you feel happy and hyper again :)

Murasaki no Musouka

Hello everyone - I hope you enjoyed your day - and that you are still enjoying it now :)
The heading says it all - Murasaki no Musouka is my nickname that I usually use for artistic stuff.
You can find me on DeviantART if you like to and from time to time I would like to share some of my art with you. So, lets post something special to me - just for you ;)

This is saint Vitus cathedral in Prague.

I loved living in this city!

It does not matter where you get off the public transport - there is always something beautiful and historical surrounding you <3

And I would dare to say that there is something special, almost magical, about this cathedral!

If you will have some bussiness in Prague surely pay a visit to this breath-taking place!

I am sure you will love it as much as I did.

Whenever I had a spare time between classes I always went there - just to sit and relax.

If you can chose when to go go there when is sun going down.

It is just magical! <3

H2O2

I have known for quite a long time that I will publish the short comments from the University I used to attend.
And todays´ dream made me realize that this is probably the best time - not like there is anything like a good time for posting your quick notes on the web! :D

I always wanted to be a scientist so when I had to chose which university I want to go for I did not use my brain and went for a chemistry one - without almost any knowledge at all - How stupid have I used to be?
(and probably I am still the same ...)
But well I wanted to change the world so I decided for alternative sources of energy. Getting there was not a problem - I always was a nerdy one with a brain.
But staying there with my attitude that learning is just for losers was harder - and at the end impossible :D
Anyway, I enjoyed what I could and wrote down everything that sounded funny/nice/interesting.

So, get your brains started - here it comes!

Miyavi - Selfish love

Big part of my life is music. And when I say big I mean immense!
Every once in a while I would like to share my taste with you.
Sometimes you might like it - sometimes you might not.
But I will always post what I find to be nice and original in its own way.

First, I do not know way, is Selfish love by Japanese musician Miyavi.
I really do not like this guy - there is something about him that makes me think he is arrogant. Probably the fact that he is but nevermind ...
Miyavi is a very skilled guitar player and his way is unique.
I do not adore his singing but it makes it even more specific.
So, lets cut this here and enjoy some nice music now :)

(he is just brilliant! )

the Mortal instruments

I am a big fan of movies but quite a hard nut to satisfy.
So other things I would like to write about are movies.
Lets get this started now with the last one I saw recently. :)

The story is based around this mundane girl Clary. (Mundane means something normal/typical for this world)
She is nor really trubled, having a normal life of a teenager. Hanging around with her friends, rebelling against her mother, staying out late. Clary is a good artist - probably some genes she inherited from her mum - and her drawings are partly scary and like from fantasy world with all the magical creatures you have heard about when you were a kid. Then she starts to draw this weird sign (actually a rune) and everything turns over 360 degrees. Seeing this sign on one gothic/electro pub neon light she decides to take her friend Simon in and see for herself what this club is all about. Waiting for Simon to come back with drinks she witnesses how a group of three people kill one visitor. She screams but everyone is looking at her like she must be crazy because nobody can see what she does.

OK, I must admit that it all sounds familiar.
One person that can see things that noone else can. Of course they will try to contact her and find out where they did a mistake. It is cliche in many parts, but if you like fantasy it is a really good movie for you - if you close your eyes in parts that are "too romantic" and will forgive when the cast is a little bit dull. Still, it is not as dull as Twillight. The world is detailed and painted like a scary but still cool place to be. Clary who is played by Lily Collins is a really pretty girl and she will be wearing a sexy short skirt. It is not like the whole movie is just about that at all - but it is a nice plus to have beautiful actors in it. Jace is a badass demon hunter with a face of an angel. So, both genders have something to look at. :)

I personally wanted to run away at some points when the story was totally predictable or when it was too sweet but I did not.
The world - yep, I am gonna say it again - is amazing.
The movie made me read their book version.
The Mortal instruments - city of bones deserves 3 and a half stars from 5 :)
It could be better but lets wait for the second movie.

The new start! :)

Hello everyone :)

I love starting over and over again - when you make a mistake and you get up on your feet again. 
So, this is not my first blog but I usually am pretty lazy to make it work as it should.
Lets see how it will be with this one - want to change my attitude and work harder on it.

Something about me - I am a total dreamer that tries to make things happen.
Currently living in the United Kingdom of Great Britain - it is a really nice place, everyone - you should visit it at least once in a life time.
I tried to make my dreams come true many times - always failed - but I am not giving up yet :)
Art is the biggest passion for me in all of its forms - from paintings thru writing to nature around.
Always finding something great and beautiful in everyone/everything.

Japan is my dream country - can not say that I love it because I have never been there before.
But from what I know I want to go there and see for myself, how the life is lived there.
Hoping to win a millions cause who would like to work for Japanese people :D
(too hardworking and mainly they do not like "white-people" so much in their work places ...)
Still trying to learn Japanese because it is such a lovely language that you have to try it :)

Right now I am in a phase when I do not know what to do next.
What dream to pursue ... seriously when you love too much stuff you can not chose and you are just losing your precious time :)

In this blog I will write about everything and am willing to answer some of your questions.
Maybe not all of them - sometimes I can not know the answers :D 

So, this is the end for now :)

See you soon, guys :3

PS: this is me :D