When to love is not an option

First of all, I would like to apologize for not writing anything for such a long period of time.
I was not really busy or anything, I was just lazy as usual.
That is why I have to say sorry and be ashamed of myself xD

Today, it will be mostly just about my problems and bla bla bla but I am sure that some of you will be able to relate their stories as well.
Almost everyone was in love - at least once in their lifetime.
Some of us all in love all the time - usually platonic.
There are always this beautiful platonic loves you are not even trying to work out just because you know they can not be real - for example "loving" an older japanese guy that is married?!
You can always look at them and admire, sometimes blush when you talk to them, but if you have something called conscience and brain you won´t try to kiss them :D (you do not want to make a fool of yourself after all, or do you?! )
But then there are times when it is too hard to prevent yourself from falling for someone.
And sometimes it can be too deep to get easily back on your feet.