Does life make us nihilistic?

I know.
It seems like a really serious topic - and it actually is.
But first we should give some definition what Nihilism is all about.
I am sure most of you do know. Lets ask wiki what she thinks about it though! :)

Nihilism 

• Philosophical doctrine suggesting the negation of one or more putatively meaningfulaspects of life.
• Mostly nihilism is presented in the form of existential nihilism - argues that life is without objective meaning, purpose, or value.
• Moral nihilists - morality does not exist, any established moral values are abstractly contrived. 
• In some aspect, knowledge is not possible, or that reality does not actually exist.

The term is sometimes used in association with anomie to explain the general mood of despair at a perceived pointlessness of existence that one may develop upon realising there are no necessary norms, rules, or laws.

Now when we were all introduced lets move to the discussion.

(well, monologue more likely)

When to love is not an option

First of all, I would like to apologize for not writing anything for such a long period of time.
I was not really busy or anything, I was just lazy as usual.
That is why I have to say sorry and be ashamed of myself xD

Today, it will be mostly just about my problems and bla bla bla but I am sure that some of you will be able to relate their stories as well.
Almost everyone was in love - at least once in their lifetime.
Some of us all in love all the time - usually platonic.
There are always this beautiful platonic loves you are not even trying to work out just because you know they can not be real - for example "loving" an older japanese guy that is married?!
You can always look at them and admire, sometimes blush when you talk to them, but if you have something called conscience and brain you won´t try to kiss them :D (you do not want to make a fool of yourself after all, or do you?! )
But then there are times when it is too hard to prevent yourself from falling for someone.
And sometimes it can be too deep to get easily back on your feet.